I remember my cousin said going somewhere for a while helps you a lot, especially to find inspiration. She stayed in Bali for three weeks and also in Japan for the same period of time. She did it alone and I was in awe! She is such a brave woman even though she is 2 years younger than me. After that, I kept seeing posts especially on Facebook and Instagram that emphasized about the benefits of traveling: how traveling can change your life and helps you to know more about yourself. My heart was moved because of the latter reason; I want to know more about myself.
I’m going to be 27 years old soon yet I am far from the getting settled. I’m still trying to find my identity and what I want to focus on. From what I read, this kind of confusion is commonly happened in young adulthood, maybe you have heard of the term too; it’s quarter-life crisis. Some are lucky enough to endure and pass the crisis not far from their home while some has to take a journey.
Last December in 2016, I saw a friend’s post on Instagram and how living alone in somewhere far supports her happiness. She was in Bali too (and she still is). Bali is a good option, I think. The culture, the people, and the view (of course) are fascinating. So far, I got so many inspirations from talking with people, local or foreigner; because here I always find a reason to greet people: at the hostel or any where else by simply asking typical question from tourist to another tourists or from tourist to locals. Well no la, you can always get the kind of chance even in your hometown, it doesn’t have to be Bali. Haha.
When I saw my friend’s post, I could sense that it was the momentum and I submitted my resignation letter not long after lol. It was such a sudden thought and I even didn’t think about how my family would react. I kept talking to myself: ‘I have to do this.’ I’m lucky to have parents that accept me for who I am, they wait patiently for me and keep supporting me. I couldn’t ask for more. I love them that I want to be a whole person of I am by doing this.
I have to know where this path takes me to.
I’m sure the process, how scary it may seem, will lead me understanding myself better.
To any of you, who still seek for identity, please love yourself. Listen to your heart because it knows better about what you have to do. Maybe you don’t have to travel, but make a move! Do what your heart tells you to and don’t let your parents, family, or society define you. You are what you think you are. You deserve your love more than anyone else and believe me, self love isn’t selfish. It’s important. Do something that feed your soul then you will really really live. Never lose faith!